reflection

pearl-sized water drizzled all over my body. i looked up at the sky. my eyes were forced to close as rainwater tried to break through my eyelids. the pearls expanded and got heavier. my feet strung into action although my heart wanted them to stay still. my eyes looked for shelter while my mind conquered my leg.

the thuds on a roof calmed me and i found a place where the rainwater wouldn't find me.my shoes drenced from the rain made squeaky sounds trying to find a place to rest. fatigue brought me down and i sat.

looking at a puddle of water in front of me. who is this person? 'I' am not the one i see. the guy in the reflection was different and ugly. a drop of water, could have been my sweat or the rain water, distorted the image with ripples. constructive interference and destructive interference... i was floating into the world of Physics.

but the ripples stopped and the clear image of the guy startled me. was i always this scary looking? i kept looking at him unblinkingly. he stared back just as determined. i never felt this awkward before. my reflection being not mine.

maybe i never really looked at my reflection before but, it was quite difficult to push aside the fact that i have changed so much. my hands started to twiddle with themselves while my eyes strained to keep competing with the ugly looking image.

a song slowly sneaked it's way into my mind. when will my reflection show who i am inside... reflection from the movie Mulan. can our reflection really show the real us? i am not sure. maybe mulan's question was rhetorical....not meant to be answered.

i stand up still staring at the guy. he is not me and i don't want to be him. my eyes close. voluntarily, my legs 'kicked' and 'jumped' and 'destroyed' the puddle of water. when i opened my eyes, the puddle wasn't there anymore. at that moment i looked up and saw sunshine. the day is just starting, i smiled.

p.s.: this kinda really happened in prefects' camp 2009 which i'll be talking about later....