quick update.......

well, first HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL FRIENDS.......then HAPPY VALENTINES to all......

i m back from PLKN...for CNY holz....and so far i m loving the activities and everything about PLKN.
i had no idea that it would be this fun....it's really cool people....don't ever miss the chance if u ever get chosen...

and yeah....of course i am as dark as i can be........

i'll tell u guys more abt the activities once i have finished the whole programme....ok?....

i got nothing else to tell u guys at this moment.....so have fun indulging yourself in all those chinese cuisines this new year....and don't forget to get heart-shaped chocolates for your loved ones ( put roses on that list too....k.)

take care people....and chiao......

.a question to all.....

i am confused. whether to listen to my friends who are asking me to differ NS and go for college or to go for NS like i planned earlier......its like...why you want to go and waste time there when you can join a college and start early.....and my dad is like it will be a new experience, go for it... i am confused.......

i am really dumbfounded. help me.....what do you guys think.....should i go or not?

i am gonna try and stay calm but.................

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IT'S ALL OVER, BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am who i am

i have been called a lot of things; an ogre, a gorilla, a girl, a chicken, a weirdo and why even a nonsenscical jerk. but i am non of those. i am who i am. who am i? good question. aren't we all trying to find the best answer possible for that?

i dunno lar. i am confused. why? i don't know. about what? i don't know. i just came back from a fren's palce and i feel like crap. its like i have not been acting my age. u know its like one moment i am the happiest man on earth and the next i have sunk to the deepest of the seas. am i acting my age?

its like i have to u know....some how....be 17 but according to people i am still acting like i am in lower secondary or sumthin like that. i dun even know what i am typing this for.....

what do u guys think......am i supposed to be who i am or be the grown up guy everybody expects of me??????

unknown number.....

there was this moment
you were sitting next to the person beside me
and i was wondering
will we still be frens
after our time in secondary school

we laughed
we talked
we joked
and we ate

then suddenly
my phone vibrates
i looked at the unknown number
called that number
but no one answered

we continued laughing
we continued talking
we continued joking
and then again
the unknown number

i ignored it this time
before i knew it
it was time to bid farewell
for the lunch was over

everybody started moving
i looked around
searching for a friend
of ten years
then i see him

gladly stood beside him
and i saw his family
heading towards the exit
he said bye
i said bye

he looked at me
and smiled
"it was me"
he said showing
his phone

i laughed
and slapped him
on his shoulder
"how dare you"
i asked, smiling

then he left.....
after that i left too.

the four letters...

the four letter word,
is it true?
or is it just another myth.
long i stand here,
waiting and believing,
also hoping that it is.

would she come?
what if she doesn't?
what do i do?
do i go back?
or do i stay and wait?
wait for time to pass
and with it,
my youth.

stares thrown at me,
like daggers,
stick out on the outside,
even more painful
blunt daggers of fear,
start bludgeoning
my poor fragile heart.

glancing left and right,
i take a step in front,
awaiting the saccharine smell,
those beautiful eyes,
her cascading silky black river,
the pearls her roses conceal,
the touch of her wet petals.

consoling my weeping heart,
i take a step back,
only to find out,
i had stepped on her
soft shy feminine calves,
magic sparked for
both our eyes locked,
and with it LOVE,
i kissed her,
right there and then.

guys i am a bad poet but i wanted to write something short and story-like but it kinda turned out as a poem....wait...i am not that sure whether it is poem or not....sorry if it pains to read this...hehehehehehehehheheh

didn't really want to pick out a tittle...

well, i feel bad for not studying the amount i am suppose to. having said that, i am truly seeing new personalities (who are not that new anyway) who are popping out like mushrooms out of no where. no...no... they were there before but i didn't really notice them.

first of....

Barack Obama..
i love the way he delivers a speech and i truly think that he has the power (and brains) to change the world. i am also inspired by the way he holds himself high, even though odds are against him. i do not really like politics but as far as it goes, he is truly a magnificent character who i think is one of the best leaders we have in our generation. i took notice of him recently, when there was a brouhaha about a comment he made about the police force. and then decided to youtube him and i heard a speech he gave on changing the world. it was awesome.

will smith (i know you are thinking, whats up with me and african american guys?? aren't you?)
well, i saw him on oprah and sure i loved his movies way before that. he is just so cool, calm , collected and crazy at times. and have you heard him laugh .......ohhhhh...you should....then you will be laughing at and with him. it is just so funny. i love the way he talked about his kids, and life and everything he said on the show was just so apt at that moment. i don't know why but i was depressed when i was watching the show but when the show ended my spirit was uplifted.

dhilip varman...(i am sorry for you if you haven't heard him sing...sorry also if you don't understand the language he sings in..tamil.)
he is this awesome indian singer in malaysia. i heard his songs and fell in love with all of them..i really can't believe that we have a singer that good. i also love the way he sings live. he is so genuine when he gives interviews.....and i also love the fact that he didn't give up after losing in a competition and is now even more famous than the girl who won.

i really can't believe that i didn't notice these guys before. well, they are just great...i don't really know why i am blogging about nonsense like these which you already know about (most of you all...anyway).. but this is MY blog...... so you know i just felt like writing something like this. cheao.... ppl..(for now)